I have been in a very melancholy mood this past week. Things haven't exactly gone the way I would have planned over the past few months and I find myself trying to fix everything in my own strength. It would be so easy to go back to corporate life and work the proverbial 9-5 and earn a living. Except everything is not as it appears on the other side of the fence. Is it ever really a 40 hour work week? Could I even find a job in this economy? And what other things are being sacrificed along the wayside?
So this week I had to do some major soul-searching. Get back to the basics. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt leaving corporate life to stay home with BBC three years ago was a God-ordained decision in our lives. I had total and complete peace about that then.
We had originally planned for me to go back to corporate once he started school but I have found over the past six months that my son needs me to be here for him more than ever. He needs structure. He needs discipline. He needs spiritual nurturing. After all this my husband and I still firmly believe me being home with BBC is God's will for our lives.
So why is it so hard to trust that God will provide even when things don't look or go as WE plan? This week the LORD gave me the NEON sign. He sent many people to speak into my life - many without even knowing (my dear friend Kimberly, John Maxwell, a new blog friend Amy Kinser, and many others). Here's what they all said to me in a round about way...
"Commit to the LORD whatever you do, and your plans will succeed." Proverbs 16:3 NIV
Thank you, LORD for NEON signs! Now I pray I can follow through and do so... I'm a hard-headed child!
Have you gotten a NEON sign, lately? If so are you following it?
~Southern Fried Gal